My week started with the death of my friend’s daughter on Wednesday.
On Thursday a well known community member passed away due to a sudden heart attack.
Yesterday a woman with whom I went through cancer treatment was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer.
Last night I learned of a family friend who just received a terminal cancer diagnosis after going to the doctor for back pain.
It has been a terribly difficult week.
It has also been a week filled with love.
On Tuesday another high school friend met us at the hospital with McDonald’s and Dairy Queen. Although she lost her 17 year old son just three years ago and knew what we were facing, she showed up with food, stayed an talked with us, and gave love that was deeply needed. She and Max had not seen each other since high school…God brought them together now because Dana has already been navigating this darkness for three years. She can help to Maxine to navigate this at her own pace; maybe with some pointers.
This morning at breakfast I saw a woman who has been a family friend since I was very young. I went over and chatted with her for a bit. When we talked about the week and the prayers we talked about miracles…and how her husband’s cancer had been found extremely early due a blood thinner he had been on; causing the tumor to bleed. In three weeks he was diagnosed, operated on, and declared cancer free.
I told her of the miracle of Nancy holding her own for just over an hour after the ventilator was disconnected. How my work had just finished for the summer and I had stayed in the USA for an extra three days just so I could see the doctor on Monday. If I had left on Friday I would not even have known how sick Nancy was until I was already in Thompson. I could not have been there for her family if God had not put me there.
The blessings continue to shine on me this week. I have felt God at every turn, every challenge, every blessing.
Being able to be at my parent’s home giving my heart the time it needs to reconnect with reality. I am also giving my body rest. I have not skated since I left USA Monday and decided today to not even attempt to fit that into my schedule.
I know I need to take some time and intentionally decide how to schedule myself. I usually take time in the late summer and early fall to step away from a many commitments as I can so that I can reevaluate each one. I have no issue with cutting back. I refuse to start out over scheduled. Inevitably items get added to the calendar as the year moves forward; by the time summer comes around I am usually so busy it is nuts.
While I could very well spend the rest of my time here lost in questions, grief, and pain I am choosing to intentionally fill my time living the life granted to me.
Not the easiest week, and not the most difficult either. Having You at the center of my thoughts has allowed me to see each of the small miracles.
Thank you for allowing me to share those miracles with those around me.
As I move forward this next week and beyond; help me to discern the best uses of my time and talents for the upcoming year. As I serve You, bring me opportunities to share You with those around me.
I am listening.