In just 30 hours my boys will home and I am so thankful that yesterday I got to see them both for a few minutes. One had a doctor’s appointment and the other had archery league.
It gave me the strength and resolve to get through today and tomorrow. I am also recovering from a severe sinus infection and possibly something funky in my lungs. My energy has been super low and I have been letting my body heal so taking it easy…which is emotionally difficult for me.
I learned through cancer that taking it easy was not an option, it was a necessity. My heart figured that once we were finished with treatment and surgeries I would be able to move on and continue living life. I had no idea that my life would look so different.
I expected some down time with healing, getting my energy and stamina back. I had no idea it would be so difficult. I push myself…then I question if I am pushing too hard on a healing body or not pushing hard enough. There is no manual for getting back in shape after cancer.
This weekend is walleye opener so we’re going fishing. The little one asked what time:
C: Like 12:01 am it starts?
Me: I guess so. We’ll go when we get up in the morning…like 8 o’clock or so.
C: Ya, sometimes I get up around 7.
M: That’s fine, it’s light by then.
C: Sometimes at 6.
M: (to myself) Oh man I hope not…
I just want my kids home…sooner rather than later. I know, I know…patience D…patience.
I’m working on it.